sooooo this is what being frustrated can do to you and it goes a lil something like this….
Trynna go to school without the welfares budget
And financial aid is like the McDonalds 6 piece nugget
A small size portion for a dude with a hungry intake
Its like I try hard but easily make a mistake
Damn now ain’t a trip huh, cold world we living in
Yet the saddest part is that Im having trouble fitting in
Oh yeah, Im grinding low on a broke mans tuition
Have faith and hope, I know its a heavy ambition
I wanna SUCK-SEED right now just to get my digits
I standin 6 feet high but Im down low like midgets
I must be trippin cause I lay alone and stare at the wall
Yeah Im a lil spacey so I stand back and look at it all
Hmm Let me ponder my thoughts as I acquire attention
The crowd is mighty quiet no matter the people I mention
Big feet never tell so I hate going shopping for shoes
Its almost like rejection cause I cant pick and choose
Access denied, there goes the train to perfection
So I feel like a glitch that never made its inspection
Punching walls and kicking trash cans, can I be crazy?
The couch is where I sleep so shall I be labeled lazy?
Well maybe Im frustrated cause Im tired of this shit
Excuse the use of profanity see I tried to dismiss it
Heres a million hugs because honestly no one gives a fuck
Im fully loaded thats a heavy reason to suck
I use to take risk back when life was insured
Now Im half alive & dead cause I been left injured
Then again I could try a lil harder just to give it a spark
It doesn’t really matter cause I always get left in the dark
So Im suppose to smile like everything is happy?
Nah! so Fuck your dinner plate you see my shit is crappy
But wait Im not hating because I want everyone to make it
Count your blessings and eat how you bake it
Life is road so of course we have to take chances
If you don’t, it’ll pass away fast as it glances
I’d hate to come in last but I never seen first place
I’d even cheat a lil just to get a sample of its taste
I know its wrong so I do everything the right way
Real talk its sad to me when I wake up everyday
Im waiting for the new cause Im starting to age
The chapter is over but now Im ready to turn the next page.
― Albert Einstein
Summer days all alone walking down the hot street
Penny, nickels and dimes trynna make it last at a Swapmeet
Struggling battles I rather spend my times locked inside a room
Quick to spit raw but never good enough to jump the broom
I try to keep it real, yet it seems Im just another outcast
Like blurry memories that was buried back up in the past
I talk mighty loud but you see my words are silent
Sorrow engraves it all cause my thoughts are violent
Headphones in my ear just to tune me out
Always hearing about the love but I never see a shout
Wipe my tears with smiles cause it seems the healthy way to be
Its either that or become the only friend thats an enemy
I can see the truth but its obviously its the plan for me
Infatuated with hope cause drugs are a natural remedy
Run away from joy its the chance that I wanna receive
Yet when time comes to stand, no one cares to believe
So tell me why Im here walking on sidewalks
Im split in half like when Dr.Jackal and Mr.Hide talks
Tell me If Im crazy or if Im going insane
This Bandwagon society and the people speak it so profane
Matter fact Im done with it all cause I rather be an individual
Never mind the standard that you call, Ima live up to the principle.
I lay in my bed at night contemplating thoughts in my mind.
To understand the truths or explanations of the kind.
I stop and wonder, Why must adversity be so cruel?
Its like caring a thousand burdens on my back like a mule.
Tug, push and pull, I try to hold on from being dismantled.
On the days I succeed, the victory is handled.
I feel like Im next in line to be crucified by my ideas of joy.
All because Im tired of being the owner’s puppet toy.
I wonder what its like to have the feeling of change.
I cant seem to remember it which makes me strange.
Maybe because my future is my past I don’t know yet.
I wonder if the odds will lose and I finally win a bet.
I cant imagine how much it feels to have so much sight.
To only enjoy the moments under pressure through the light.
Why must death be so easy when life is hard?
I wonder will I be able to fight and guard.
Probably at its least I’ll fall but I will rise.
To claim what is rightfully mine, my golden prize.
Separated from worlds we both love that are torn apart
We hold together in tact with power from our heart
Living in the spirit not as two but we live as one
We stand for joy to overcome all odds and fall for none
Side by side holding hands to the flame sparks a loving color
Like the beauty of nature that we all call mother
The constant battles of destruction breaking bonds in between
Causing everyone around the pain forced to be mean
We gaze upon the field where the bloodshed began
To the endless days of terror looking for a common friend
He say She say the words go back to back
Abandoned ideas scrambled across leaving the few to a pack
We wonder when will the anger leave its frustration
Our existence is slim to none lacking all translation
The hostility between here and there kept us closer
Of which these Tyrants I dare not to divorce her
Piece by piece I give it all to her I’ve saved in ration
But only to show my bottled emotions of passion.